Here's what is going on in my life right now:
-- Tomorrow is my last day leading music at Mag. Steve Brown has been hired to take the position and run with it. I am really excited to see what he does with it. That pretty much summs up my feelings about it - I'm excited.
-- In 7 days I fly home for my sister's graduation. She's graduating from High School (kinda weird). I'll be in Fresno for 5ish days. I'm pumped to be with family for a while. Believe it or not, but this is sort of my vacation this summer - I'm taking time off work and going into an unscheduled schedule.
-- I'll fly home from Fresno on Wednesday morning, get picked up by an ISP teammate, re-pack a bag, then leave for 3 weeks in the Carribbean Wednesday night. I'm super pumped about going (obviously), but nervous about the ministry aspect. I know it's unconventional to say that before a trip, but I'm trying to be honest. We don't know a ton about what we're doing there ministry-wise and I'm scared it will revolve around kids. That's not the mission trip I necessarily want. Some team members are stoked on it, but not I. It is here where I need to trust God that He placed me on this team for His purpose and step out in faith on that. Overall, not a bad place to be.
-- All us roomates (minus the phantom Curtis) talked about our bill/rent paying system. We have a good plan, and the conversation came down to - we all need to be honest with each other and communicate well. I'm blessed to have the roomates I have, and am excited to deveop deeper relationships with them.
-- Whitney is gone for a couple months. I was fine before she left. I focused on her cool ministry opportunity, and the fact that (Lord willing) we will have a long time to be together. Now I am not so ok. I'm not depressed or suicidal (don't worry mike). I'm just experiencing lonliness. I want to learn how to turn lonliness into something productive, like: study (either reading or actual studying something), or working out (pushups, running, cycling), or even worship (any thoughts?). I'm learning to pray differently too - not sure how, will update.
-- When I return from St. Vincent I'll have a totally re-vamped roll at church. I'm almost immediately shifting from High School Associate / Contemporary worship leader to college minister. There's some High School stuff still lingering for the summer, but basically my focus is making the jump. College minister - I'm intimidated. Here I am again in the spot of needing one to support me, fill me, guide me, impart wisdom ... (this could get long). My faith is being stretched even more. Despite the fear, I still thank God for putting me here in the first place - here where I am nudged (if not more) to rely on Him. The only way to fail is to ignore the nudge and go solo.
-- I think I'm at one of those reflective moments in life, like life in general. Where am I heading? What does the next 10 years look like? Who (more like when) will I marry? Money? Job? A reflective moment, only it's not a moment, it has been a while; hence this long post labeled "life." Life... (sigh). I don't want to mess up what God wants me to do, but, embarrassingly and regretably, there are times I'm not seeking what He wants me to do. Hopefully this reflective time leads me to the pursuit of He who is my guide for life.
Overall, things are OK. I miss Whitney, but am excited for life. Someone reminded me recently that I have one major thing going for me right now, and that is time. Time is on my side. If I live to be 80, then I've only lived 1/4 of my life. 3/4 are lying in front of me, waiting.
I'm not sure how to end this one - sorry if you read to here and are disappointed that I didn't have another great 'scaring my roomate' story. This one is probably one of those "just for me" posts that I may look back in a while and recall this pericope of life. I know that isn't the right word (my life is not Scripture), but I never use it so thought I'd throw it around a little. So, here's the end of the post: bland and mediocre. Go Ducks.
